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Post by mimi2 on Apr 10, 2012 21:37:58 GMT -5
s h o u ld i g i v e u p o r s h o u l d i just keep chasing pavements even though it
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,10,true][atrb=style,background-image: url('http://i53.photobucket.com/albums/g79/Juliart/background_black.jpg');,true][cs=2] L E A D S T O N O W H E R E | | [atrb=width,240] Vara, for once in her life, was completely and utterly confused with her love life. No, it wasn’t debating an amount of love for someone. She knew who she loved and just how much she loved him. She knew she loved Lucas with her whole heart and soul. But did that really mean that she had to be Mrs.James? It wasn’t that she didn’t want to. She just didn’t know what she wanted. She needed advice. And the only person she ever went to for advice was her little sister, AKA Leia James. Of course it was a little awkward since she was Lucas’ sister, but it wasn’t like they weren’t friends prior to Vara’s relationship. Hell, she could probably ask for sex advice, that is if she knew Leia wasn’t a virgin.
Now, she knew the mall would be the perfect place to talk. After a full day of shopping, bags in hand, Vara took the younger girl into the food court and took a seat, taking an apple out of her bag and sighing. As much as she loved dance, it also meant watching your weight constantly. Luckily though, Vara did have a decent metabolism. “So...” The red head smiled at her companion, taking a bite, “Your brother proposed to me the other day. Funny, right?” Though her tone wasn’t amused. It was more of an awkward topic, as if pleading for a comment or some sort of consoling. goes here | [atrb=width,100]words ,251 words tagged ,Peeta/Leia <3 outfit,here |
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Post by LEIA MARIE JAMES on Apr 10, 2012 23:23:16 GMT -5
there's a fire starting in my heart reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,10,true][atrb=style,background-image: url('http://i53.tinypic.com/wb98wn.jpg');,true] ROLLING IN THE DEEP !
Leia loved to hang out with Lucas' girlfriend, Vara, and she felt like the two were practically sisters. Hell, Leia's one of the main reasons that Luke even knows Vara exists. Leia and Vara were both dancers in the same studio, and until Vara's graduation, they had a friendly rivalry going on within the studio; Leia credits a lot of her skills to the fact that she was always trying to one-up Vara.
She also envied Vara, who seemed so comfortable in the body she was given. Leia wanted to feel like that so badly, but something inside her knew that she never would. Even watching Vara eat the apple she brought with her made her stomach growl, but she was repulsed at the same time. She wanted to be thinner and lighter for her Swan Lake audition, and working out and obsessively watching what she ate was usually what she turned to. That, and her case of bulimia, which no one knew about. She had no idea how either Vara or Luke would react if they found out, and she never wanted them to.
Luke had told her about the failed proposal, and Leia couldn't exactly say that Vara was on her "nice list" right now. Leia and Vara may have had a history, but the person she loved most in this world was her brother, and seeing him hurting hurt her as well.
"Yeah...he told me about that..." Leia said, her stomach growling again.
Shut up. You're not going to get fed. Think about the Swan Lake audition.
"I love you to death, Vara, but I've gotta say: you're not exactly on my 'nice list' right now."
282 WORDS , MIMI/VARA , EAT THAT APPLE QUICKLY |
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Post by mimi2 on Apr 11, 2012 7:42:35 GMT -5
theres a thunder in our hearts baby  so much need for the ones we love TAG: LEIA/PEETA OUTFIT: HERE ONE LAST THING: LOVE YOU.
“Did you expect me to just say yes? I had no idea if he was serious or not... I thought he was joking...” The red-head sighed and looked at her hopelessly, as if she was at her wits end. “Don’t get me wrong I love him but... Oh I dunno.” Vara tossed the apple out and rested her head on her forearms, giving another heaving exhale. It was clear who’s side Leia was on. But she was not surprised in the least. They were blood. But this was the first time that Vara actually felt as if she hurt the poor little joker in their whole relationship. “..On a lighter note, I can’t wait to see you in Swan Lake... I remember doing it when I was your age. I was excited because it was my first real lead.”
Vara studied Leia. She was so happy that they weren’t in the same dance circuit anymore. It would always be tense around auditions between them, simply because they both would be going for the same role. Vara, because she was older, had a bit more skill, but that was simply because of skill. She and Leia were equals. What she didn’t have in skill, she made up with determination and drive, and that Vara admired. Another thing she loved about Leia, frankly, was the fact that she was the whole reason that Vara met Lucas. And if she hadn’t gone to the same studio, well, she wouldn’t have met her soul mate.
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Post by LEIA MARIE JAMES on Apr 11, 2012 9:37:37 GMT -5
there's a fire starting in my heart reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,10,true][atrb=style,background-image: url('http://i53.tinypic.com/wb98wn.jpg');,true] ROLLING IN THE DEEP !
"I know my brother's a big joker, but he can be extremely serious sometimes. I promise you that he has never joked about how much he loves you. I know my brother; if he loves you enough to propose to you, he's not kidding." Leia didn't want to hurt Vara's feelings, but it only seemed fair that she got at least a tiny taste of what Luke was going through. She hated seeing her brother be upset,
"I haven't gotten the part yet...auditions are next week." Leia was extremely nervous about the audition, and her nervousness was punctuated by another growl in her stomach.
How does she not hear that?
Leia had seen the movie Black Swan, and she felt like it would drive her to that level of crazy if her anxiety built up any more. This would be her first lead role, and she wanted to prove to herself that she could do it. And who knows? Maybe taking on a solo venture like this would prove to Lucas that she could handle herself, and that she didn't need protection from him.
Oh great, the crazy has already started.
"I forgot you were the lead in Swan Lake. I hope my performance, if I get the role, doesn't completely blow yours out of the water."
Leia smiled a teasing smile. She felt Vara studying her, and she felt extremely self-conscious in a matter of milliseconds.
I'm too fat for the role, you know that. Please don't point it out; I'm not done losing weight yet.
271 WORDS , MIMI/VARA , DON'T JUDGE ME |
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Post by mimi2 on Apr 13, 2012 1:11:47 GMT -5
theres a thunder in our hearts baby so much need for the ones we love TAG: LEIA/PEETA OUTFIT: HERE ONE LAST THING: LOVE YOU.
“But... He didn’t even propose correctly or get on one knee or have a ring or anything like that... He just brought it up in casual conversation. ‘Oh Pixie, we should get engaged.’ We were in his dorm and he just sat and ate pizza. Completely casual. How can I take that as a legitimate proposal?” Vara sighed at the girl in front of her and rubbed her arm, then resting on it. She felt so heartless.
“Yeah well we’re doing showcase at school and I keep working on my solo piece and it’s not really looking so hot.” The woman shrugged and smiled hopelessly. “At least I think so. It’s not up to my standards yet.” It was true that her standards were borderline impossible to reach, so she always thought she was a lot worse than she actually was. “You’d make an excellent swan darling. Don’t worry about getting the lead, just do your best and don’t worry about it too much. That way you have fun, too.” Vara was very comfortable with her dancing skill frankly, same with her body. After having someone there for her to support her and make her feel loved for five years, she couldn’t find things to be insecure about. She tried her best, and that’s all that ever mattered.
With a yawn she looked at Leia, “You look skinnier babe. Are you working out more? You need to balance out your calorie intake. I’ve been so bad lately. Lucas and I only eat fast food, it seems. My choreographer is going to murder me one day I swear.”
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Post by LEIA MARIE JAMES on Apr 14, 2012 15:22:45 GMT -5
there's a fire starting in my heart reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,10,true][atrb=style,background-image: url('http://i53.tinypic.com/wb98wn.jpg');,true] ROLLING IN THE DEEP !
"Yeah, he told me about that. I've already yelled at him for it." She definitely was disappointed when he didn't put any effort into the actual proposal outside of his deep love for Vara. Girls liked to fantasize about how they'd be proposed to, and he definitely fell short of expectations.
"Doesn't change the fact that he was serious. He's just...well, that's his style of life, I suppose. You should know that just as much as I do. He's such a laid-back guy."
"I wish it were that easy. It's literally driving me bonkers." Leia said with a sigh. She rested her head in her hands, and smiled half-heartedly. She liked the fact that Vara was trying to instill some confidence in her, but she wouldn't be truly confident in it until she actually got the role.
"Yeah, and my solo dance for the recital isn't looking good, either. I can't decide what song to dance to."
Leia froze a bit, not sure how to respond to Vara.
"Uh...yeah, I HAVE been working out more. I want to be light for Thomas; you remember he got into a car wreck a while ago. He hasn't been able to lift a lot of weight very well, so I'm trying to do him a favor."
Thomas was the lead male in a lot of the studio's shows. He was a year older than Leia, and she looked up to him a lot.
But Leia couldn't ignore the fact that Vara noticed her weight loss. How obvious was it to her family?
261 WORDS , MIMI/VARA , PLEASE DON'T TELL MY FAMILY |
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